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? Thursday, May 27, 2010

My Life?

Hi people, might be neglecting this blog for quite awhile.. Cause currently i am adapting to my working life. No internet for me for the time being.. =(
So hopefully things will get better! =)

&& happy 3 year 1 month babyboy!

Night, shall turn in like now~ Nighty night!

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12:45 AM

? Monday, May 24, 2010

My Life?

"Find someone who isn't afraid to admit that they miss you. Who knows that you're not perfect, but treat you as if you are. Whose biggest fear is losing you. Who says I love you and means it. Lastly, someone you wouldn't mind waking up in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and gray hair but still falls in love with you all over again."

Honestly, are you dating 2 people?
-Obviously like no~

So you hate it when people ask questions about the last person you kissed?
-Perhaps when it gets too annoying?

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
-Hmm, i think i ever did. =x

Are you wearing any jewelry?
-Tongue stud

What’s on your mind?
-What to cook for breakfast later on for baby..

If you had to choose between a million dollars or be able to change a regret?
-Change a regret, cause if i change 1, i might be not what i am now. =(

What was the best month of the year?
-APRIL!

Have you ever kissed someone with a tattoo?
-YesYes!

Are you keeping a secret right now?
-No.

You ever fallen asleep on someone’s shoulder?
- Ever =)

Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy?
- Forgotten eh.

Who was the last person you told to shut up?
- BABY!

Is it hard leaving people behind?
- It's hard, very hard.

Have you cried today?
- No.

Are you tired?
-Wide awake..

Has anyone told you they don’t wanna ever lose you?
- Awww, Yes of course.

Did you enjoy your last hug?
- So-so

Who is the first person you would call if you needed help?
- Baby!

Is sex the most important thing in a relationship?
- Fuck no!

If you had a daughter what would her name be?
- Err, a cute name perhaps?

Where were you tonight at 10:00?
- 445 =)

Have you ever found it hard to get over someone?
- Yes, but its over. && I dont want to get over someone anymore.

Do you think your first love affects the way you go on with life?
- If you're saying a serious one, then.. is a yes.

Have you held hands with somebody in the past week?
- Yes!

Are you there for your friends?
- I be there, provided they call me!

Be honest, do you like people in general?
- Hmm, i like people to smile rather than giving me fuck face. =)

Does anyone hate you for no reason?
-Yes! They hate me cause they thought i was staring at them. -.-

Have you ever been out past curfew?
- Yes! Shhh, haha

Can you honestly say that you’re happy?
-Not happy, i should say contented. =)

Is your best friend black?
- No, haha!

Is it easy to pretend everything’s okay for you?
- Its pretty easy for me, cause i used to bottle everything up inside, only 4 people knows me the best.

Have you ever been abused?
- Yes, =(

Is there someone you just can’t imagine your life without?
- Yes, I hope it wont happen. Puh-lease!!

Are you a morning person or a night person?
-Half-half?

Do you like when people call you things like “babe”, sweetie”, “hun”, etc?
- Err, i only like my boyfriend calls me like that. Not others, i find it weird. Haha! But.. Jokingly is okay.

Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
- Yes.

Did you have a weird dream last night?
- Dont think so?

What color are your socks?
- Not wearing socks nowww~

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
- Perhaps only downstairs?

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- I have many guy friend that i can confide to. =) & i am glad.

Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
-Yes, i like writing in pencil.

Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
-No..

Where are you located right now?
- Homee~

Is your cell phone a touch screen?
- Ya~

Is there anyone who you think you deserve an apology from?
- No..

Who was the last person you said “i love you” to?
- BABY!

Pssss...
Here is some update, as i know that i havent been posting up for a long time. I'll be back soon, I promise. *Pinky promise!*

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5:12 AM

? Monday, April 5, 2010

My Life?

Picture time~~

Might not be blogging for a period of time, so let the picture do the talking.

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12:29 AM

? Saturday, April 3, 2010

My Life?

Have been really busy and lazy to post this few days. Bi go back surrender alr, Willy brother came out alr. Brother and that fucktard bitch alr broke up. Many things happen yesterday, saturday already. 21 more days till bi come out. Me, aiai, willy confirm going to fetch bi! Cant wait to see my cute bi botak. I lazy to upload the photo, cause too many. I shall see when.. =) SO now.

I miss Darling. You know how much i love you right?

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12:47 AM

? Monday, March 22, 2010

My Life?

It's kinda sad when you dont even know people around you are hating you and talking bad about you aint it? Poor you! Serve you right!
LOL, just a short post for now, as i didnt blog for like how many weeks? I living my life to the fullest now as i know, people around me do really care for me. Much love, esp ZSQ.
Haha, be back later to post!

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7:43 AM

? Monday, March 8, 2010

My Life?

Deleted him from facebook and everything. Everything regarding him i thrown away. Dont wish to look back, as it hurt so much. Cant stop myself from being stubborn.
Like what someone told me, People wont remember what you did. People wont remember what you said. But, people will remember how you made them feel.
I may not be the best girlfriend on earth, i may not be the most caring, wonderful girlfriend. But, when i am with you, i gave my everything and put my whole heart on you.
Spend every effort on you, but what did i get in the end? Your unfaithfulness and your dont care attitude. I feel like sucha fool, i miss talking to you on the phone, i miss hugging you, i miss you when you hold my hand walking everywhere we go. I miss the old you.
But, i know clearly that we wont be back anymore. Because, you dont feel the same for me anymore. Because you wont sacrifise for me anymore.

Bibi, thanks for those memories that you have given me. But, its too late to change everything already. Its too late to let us go back to those happy times.
We wont be the same, so the best is to let us go back to 3 years back. where we dont know each other. Only then, i be able to forget every single thing, every fucking things we had!
Its never the same Bibi, you're the guy that i loved from the bottom of my heart. I love you, thats what i am going to say for the last time. Take care.

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12:58 AM

? Sunday, March 7, 2010

My Life?

Things has gone haywire, i have totally given up alr i guess so? Too tired to maintain the relationship that has cracks on it. Haiz, real tired to continue.
Ever since we patched things up.. You hide everything from me. I kept quiet, you take me as a fool? I am lazy to carry on.
Take for instance, Everywhere you go you have to take your phone with you, why? Cause you know what is inside your phone. Even when you check your phone have to walk to a distance.
When we are out, do we look like a couple? I dont think so. Walk, you walk yourself. Hold hand i have to auto? LOL, thats so totally not my style. Not my type of love.
Yesterday was out on a date with you, sat on the esplanade river side with you, thinking through about alot of things. The last time we went there together. Was so loving.
Yesterday when you sang song to me, was really touched. =) Really am touched. How i wish that was the real you. But, after thinking.. Then i realise, that wasnt the real you.
That is just a show for others, how foolish i can be to ask you delete those contact when i know that you wont possibly delete it. Even were to delete it, you would save it in another place then delete.
Now than i know, this love long ago has faded. No more love anymore, only hate in this relationship.
Why must i love a person that no longer treat me and take me in his first pirority? Why i refuse to give up? Its because i thought holding on will make you realise that how much i treasure this relationship.
But, it turns out differently. I dont know what to do now, i am in a mess. I dont know what i can say now! Everything is so messy, i dont know how to clear up this mess.
Friends, i know you all will say, why am i so dumb and everything, i know.
But, this is my own life, if you all treat me as friend, support me. Stand by my side, cause its my decision. I wont regret. People will change, so give time to change.
Else you never will see their good point. His good point you all might not see, but he is good by nature. Only i can see both his good and bad point. But.. Perhaps now, i am really giving up.
Because time has proven i cant change him, I cant be happy like the past anymore.
I have the courage to even fight back my father for him now, but thinking back now.. I find it no point. Cause he doesnt want to change for me, oh well. Its time to give up.
Because i believe if 2 party really love someone, eventually they both will get back together no matter what. Thats what i believe.
Perhaps the fault is not only on him, i have a part to play too. But.. oh well. I got nothing to say now~ Might going to MIA for a time of period until i really know what i really want.

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3:09 AM

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